Surviving the unknown, surviving the future, taking care of the spirit and holding on to your soul all at the same time. It is about time we find out what we are doing here, instead of just doing it without any thought, courage, or real action, intimate action with things greater than we are. Believe it or not there are things bigger, greater and larger than we are; although we as a species, humankind may of may not be unique in all this universe of any other universe. There are other universes, there are dreams and cross over lines and holes where we enter and exit and exchange information with other things we know nothing about, except maybe on a level of understanding with which we are oh so unfamiliar. What I am trying to do here is just provide information that may give you a chance to discover a new meaning to your life, and uncover things native to your own existence that may help you along the road of your existence, your short time here on planet earth. Maybe it will become, as it has become for me, a personal religion based on empirical facts, a new way of seeing, feeling, understanding and being. This entire website is based on things real, things I have felt and seen and done and experienced during my time alive. I have learned, or I am learning what is important no on a personal need basis, but on a greater scale; what is important to aid me with my process of survival, both spiritually and physically. Spiritually and physically both encompass and contain one another, they are interchangeable, because one cannot survive without the other. It is funny how I have kind of evolved or stumbled into a period of clarity of vision and thinking. Although my mind is still a jumble of chaos, stimuli, and all the sights and sounds of my total experience, I am starting to see through the fog once again and gather things past where I have been, perhaps from the place where I am going. There are healthy ways to release all this insanity, this detail and bombarding information that comes at us and hits us and sticks to us from all angles, and that we perceive on levels past our superficial awareness or the everyday, and that have a profound and permanent effect on all that we are and all that we do. I have learned how to accept things, matter, content and impulse from the unconscious, not my unconscious, but the collective unconscious, and how to use these things to form a framework for a way of living that is not based on any previous forms of culture or society. Anything so powerful can be overwhelming at times, and at times I have certainly been overwhelmed. What I have done is gone past my consciousness, and well into the unconscious to get a small glimpse of the real light in the darkness. the light in the darkness, the small flicker of the real far out in the distance, the small light on a distant shore way across some ocean of the ethereal. That is where the basis for a dreaming reality of reality is located, a place where we can all find a little peace and quiet amidst the madness and chaos that surrounds everyday. this is indeed a strange dichotomy, but I have been there, and seen it visually seen it, experienced its energy, and lived in it for periods longer than I needed to; but it was really not my choice and it was a journey that I took without any forethought or prior knowledge, traveling through the darkness, toward that little flicker of light on a shoreline so far far away. It has taught me on a simple level, based on my human capabilities and shortcomings the only level that I can understand at this time, a freedom in being real, a reality of being, based on a freedom of spirit, and a power of the soul, a freedom that I have relinquished so many times in the past because I as a human am just not capable of handling it or any of its implications. I am weak, I am human, I am a subliminal being, high energy being all at the same time. I know nothing of what I am talking about. It is as though a door or window opens and I am exposed to winds of the uncertain, winds of the unknown, that blow through and over me,, that cover me with energy that incorporates itself into my being, the becomes a part of what it is I do, see, feel, and experience. It is all so simple, but I have to make it too complicated. then the door or window closes and the impulse is gone and I am left to my own devices once more, my own devices plus the part of eternity that has covered me and attached itself to me and become a part of me during my brief visit with the unknown. All I am doing is repeating what has already been told to me, and what is constantly being told to me. It makes me feel needed and wanted, it makes me feel alive, it makes me want to go on and find another day even though I have done my best to resist the energy and the impulse to go.

Be Your Own